What, Is love?

How can someone truly sum up in words what love is. Is it the ache in your heart when you can't feel that person beside you? Is it the smile on your face when you see them in the morning, blankets wrapped around their shoulders, face down in the pillows? I personally have written about love many times. I believe this to be because I, myself can't get a grasp on what I want.

My boyfriend and I's story is a little weird, and yes, crazy. I would have to say, about 5 years ago, I met him. And boy, I would have to say, I believe in love at first sight, because this was it. His beautiful brown eyes hidden behind his glasses. His short dark spiky hair. What a dream, well to me.

I remember that day, at the track and field event that I got into ( I was never good at sports ) But I made it through for shot-put, of course, I didn't make it any farther. Low and behold he was there too. I felt so awkward, that twist in your stomach, that blush in your cheeks, yeah, That was me. But as usual, I went about my business of not talking to him, as I was shy at that point, plus, he was so cute, and I....Well I wasn't exactly little miss beauty queen. I wish I could remember how we started talking, but we did. I remember sitting against the fence, sweating in the heat and eating lunch with him. I couldn't believe it. But as usual my thoughts of him lost their way after he was gone.

Then once again, on a summer night, a wonderful summer night, I was out with my best friend, Meghan. We were just walking the streets laughing and having a good time. At this time, she had a crush on a person that happened to be hanging out with Tyler, Well that was a night I am sure to never forget. By the end of the night I was laying on the grass in the park, snuggled into his chest and staring at the stars. Sadly, It seemed the night ended much too quickly and we all needed to head home. The most romantic kiss I have ever had. There we stood beneath the street light in the middle of the night. Playing, wondering who would have the guts first. "So...what do you want?" ... "A hug" I reply. "Is that all." Here I go, I have to think. "A kiss on the cheek?" And sure enough I got my kiss on the cheek, but as I turn to face him once again, his arms still around me, we lean in, and kiss. I swear my heart beat right out of my chest, my face turned as red as a sunrise and my mind, it was racing faster than the speed of sound. It was.....perfect.

After that night however, there wasn't much conversation, only a here and there online. And yet again, we met, at school. We skipped a few classes, went to the pipes with friends, hung out after school and finally, we began dating. So this brings me back. What is love?

Now, we are almost at two years ( Off and on ) And even though we broke up, it seemed as though our hearts were still one. We were inseparable, it seemed that no matter what, we both found our way back to each other. So now, we are happy, and yes, we have our fights, we have our doubts, sometimes sadness. But if we didn't have these things, how would we know what it feels like to be truly happy. Because without sadness or anger, everything would feel the same.

So what is love to me?

It is being there when you need me most, it is holding you when you can't hold yourself up. It is me standing tall with you. It is the way I feel my heart pound in my chest when I gaze into your eyes. The way I never want you to let go of me when you hold me, or feel your lips pull away from mine. It is what we do for each other but most importantly, it is how we help each other grow. Because love, is ever growing, and only gets better with time.

In the end, Tyler, I will always love you.

- Janine R.

Aftermath of the long weekend.

So, as we all know very well, May 24 weekend is the best weekend to party, if you are off work of course.

And what can I say? I am not going to pretend it isn't the same for me, cause, it is. I had a blast, I promised of a post on how my weekend went, a follow up from the previous if you will. Well where can I really start with this. It was all set in motion when my boyfriend came to pick me up, around 3:30 pm I would say. And after that it was to the corner store! For snacks and such of course. After that, we began the journey to the hunt camp!

We first had to go to his aunts and uncles to have someone to follow as this was his first time going out there without his father or mother, so after we got to his aunts and uncles we were truley on the road. Finally after about an hour and half I would say of driving we were on the road leading to the camp. This is where I get out of the truck and drive the 4-wheeler the rest of the way in. I was pretty scared, I will admit, as it was my first time driving the machine without Tyler on the back of it. Ohh yeah, did I forget to mention my boyfriends name is Tyler. Well either way, I headed up behind the truck on the 4-wheeler, this was only beginning of the adventure on the beast. And I have reason to call it a beast, really.

So we make it to the camp. We get unpacked. And then it is relaxing and a little bit of beer for the rest of the night. Ugh, I couldn't sleep though for most of the night but finally I did, Only to be woken early for a weekend. Which I say early is 9:00 am. But yes, then there was breakfast, I only had toast because I wasn't very hungry. Oh yeah! I tried venicin pepperettes and steaks for the first time, and I didn't mind it as much as I thought I would. But back to the story.

So then after breakfast we here a noise and here comes more 4-wheelers! So here begins the 5 hour ride, that was fun, exhilirating and a little frightening. We went through rivers, mudholes, swamps everything. It was insane! Some of the rivers were as high as my waist, I know this. I walked through one of them.

But all in all it was a wonderful and very entertaining weekend. I loved it.

Long weekend, finally here.

Everyone has plans for this weekend,
of course, just like everyone else so do I. Sometimes, however, I get so sick of the stress of planning things, but I know in the end I will enjoy it once my plans are set in motion.

So my plans you ask?

Going out to my boyfriends hunt camp for the weekend, as we did the same last year, I had a blast. I am really excited, I always enjoy my time outdoors, especially in the middle of no where! The pure tranquility of the trees surrounding me. I couldn't ask for a better weekend, well, other than spending it with the person I love.

We are taking his 4-wheeler on the two hour journey from home in the back of the truck to have it out there, which is fun. I have had a few run ins that have made using 4-wheelers a very tedious thing for me, I get nervous, but he has taught me to love the thrill of it again, which I thank him for.

So that is what is going on for the weekend! Should be fun. :D

I'll make another post on it when I get back home.