What, Is love?

How can someone truly sum up in words what love is. Is it the ache in your heart when you can't feel that person beside you? Is it the smile on your face when you see them in the morning, blankets wrapped around their shoulders, face down in the pillows? I personally have written about love many times. I believe this to be because I, myself can't get a grasp on what I want.

My boyfriend and I's story is a little weird, and yes, crazy. I would have to say, about 5 years ago, I met him. And boy, I would have to say, I believe in love at first sight, because this was it. His beautiful brown eyes hidden behind his glasses. His short dark spiky hair. What a dream, well to me.

I remember that day, at the track and field event that I got into ( I was never good at sports ) But I made it through for shot-put, of course, I didn't make it any farther. Low and behold he was there too. I felt so awkward, that twist in your stomach, that blush in your cheeks, yeah, That was me. But as usual, I went about my business of not talking to him, as I was shy at that point, plus, he was so cute, and I....Well I wasn't exactly little miss beauty queen. I wish I could remember how we started talking, but we did. I remember sitting against the fence, sweating in the heat and eating lunch with him. I couldn't believe it. But as usual my thoughts of him lost their way after he was gone.

Then once again, on a summer night, a wonderful summer night, I was out with my best friend, Meghan. We were just walking the streets laughing and having a good time. At this time, she had a crush on a person that happened to be hanging out with Tyler, Well that was a night I am sure to never forget. By the end of the night I was laying on the grass in the park, snuggled into his chest and staring at the stars. Sadly, It seemed the night ended much too quickly and we all needed to head home. The most romantic kiss I have ever had. There we stood beneath the street light in the middle of the night. Playing, wondering who would have the guts first. "So...what do you want?" ... "A hug" I reply. "Is that all." Here I go, I have to think. "A kiss on the cheek?" And sure enough I got my kiss on the cheek, but as I turn to face him once again, his arms still around me, we lean in, and kiss. I swear my heart beat right out of my chest, my face turned as red as a sunrise and my mind, it was racing faster than the speed of sound. It was.....perfect.

After that night however, there wasn't much conversation, only a here and there online. And yet again, we met, at school. We skipped a few classes, went to the pipes with friends, hung out after school and finally, we began dating. So this brings me back. What is love?

Now, we are almost at two years ( Off and on ) And even though we broke up, it seemed as though our hearts were still one. We were inseparable, it seemed that no matter what, we both found our way back to each other. So now, we are happy, and yes, we have our fights, we have our doubts, sometimes sadness. But if we didn't have these things, how would we know what it feels like to be truly happy. Because without sadness or anger, everything would feel the same.

So what is love to me?

It is being there when you need me most, it is holding you when you can't hold yourself up. It is me standing tall with you. It is the way I feel my heart pound in my chest when I gaze into your eyes. The way I never want you to let go of me when you hold me, or feel your lips pull away from mine. It is what we do for each other but most importantly, it is how we help each other grow. Because love, is ever growing, and only gets better with time.

In the end, Tyler, I will always love you.

- Janine R.